"Don't look for it, Let it come to you."
I am completely done. No more looking. I have no desire for any of it anymore. I'm just gonna say f**k it all. It took me a minute to realize what was really going on in my life. I was so focused on searching for love I pushed aside everything I was hyping myself up about doing. Going to school and following my dreams is my only concern now. If a relationship comes in that time well then uhh..cool. Anyway! How is everyone tonight? Are you good, drunk, tired, sad, upset, etc.? I am actually so great now that I had a whole day alone with no outside contact to reassess my life. I may have mentioned this before, but I am a huge observer; mainly with the human beings of this planet. There was a guy recently that I was interested in. He seemed like he could be someone I could stop being single for, but this was not the case. It seemed as though we were gonna hang and go places and do fun things like going to parks and stuff....NO. It went from a nice time of walking and seeing a gorgeous waterfall to movies, and laying there talking about relatively nothing. I felt like he did not want to get to know me as much as he was wanting to try and get sex from me. I am not the type of human being to just say "OK let's go for it!" Sorry I was raised better than that and on top of it all he probably didn't even know my last name. Matter of fact he did not even ask; not once. I gave him three chances to see what would happen. Low and behold the very last time was like the other two. Just laying there watching movies and not talking about a damn thing. If this is all it is well I will move on and welcome the next guy who actually wants to get to know me for me. Not to mention I guarantee he would be willing to come to my house. That was a waste of my time and energy. I refuse to go back to the same type of situation I was in in the past. If he thought I would be a placeholder until he found what he was looking for he had another thing coming. I know my worth and I am not settling for some b.s little fling. Not to mention our ideas of getting to know someone and figuring out if they are worth it are completely opposite. His idea was make out, cuddle, watch tv, and do nothing else. My idea is to go out on dates and talk. Sure, kissing and all that plays a part, but I like to get to know someone mentally to decide if they are truly what I want and where I am as far as goals in life. I know this may sound like I'm bashing this guy or whatever, but I am not. I want something serious and he obviously was not ready for that at all. So I am back at square one, but this time I am not looking. It's all about me, female empowerment and all that jazz. I always stay hopeful for real love. It's out there and I won't know when or where but it is going to slap me in the face like a ton of bricks. Rant over. -Stay Beautiful and Happy -Peace and Love
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Where do I start with how irritated I am with not only guys, but humans in general...
Let's start with that good old thing some guys say "If you won't do it i'll find someone who will." I will say that this is probably the dumbest thing I can hear from someone I am considering even dating. Mind you I am referring to the sexual aspect of a future relationship or just a relationship in itself. (Note: These are my personal reasons. I understand people feel differently but this is my opinon we are talking about at this moment in time.) Let's get started shall we? Number 1: I have a feeling that even if the person this guy is with is doing everything in her power to keep him he could still go and cheat on her. Number 2: I feel as if this is the mindset of a boy who has not grown all the way up yet. Also, he's probably not ready for anything serious. Number 3: This is completely unattractive in itself. What type of asshole has the nerve to say this (man or woman). That's just not a good look to be honest. Those are just my reasons for hating that statement. I can not stand it whatsoever. What happened to sitting down and talking things out and letting eachother know what they want and seeing if there is some kind of solution? Oh wait, I forgot a person of that nature hasn't grown up yet. Ugh!! Alright now here is another one that drives me up a wall. The infamous "Hey stranger". Let's stop right there. First, I know who you are just as well as you know who I am regardless of how long it has been since we spoke. The sarcasm is not needed at all. Cut to the chase what in the name of everything Holy could you want after my numerous times of reaching out to you and getting no reply? Nothing? Ok. Just as I thought. You can be invisible again. Goodbye. Oh here is a great one for you Ladies and Gentleman. "I miss you." Ha! Please spare me the agonizing pain that I will be experiencing in the next 2.5 seconds. When an ex says this and you both know that things ended for the best or badly for that matter what is the point of this phrase? Can someone tell me because I feel like it's a ploy for that guy/girl to try and manipulate you into believing them even though they are probably just lonely. Do not try and fall back on me because the person you thought was going to last forever didn't work out and now you want to rebound. Go away. Matter of fact erase the thought of attempting to send that text, facebook message, or even phone call my way. Save it for someone who actually has time to deal with games. Last one everybody. This kind of refers back to the "hey stranger" or even the "I miss you" statements. The one I am trying to bring up is the "How you been?" Hmmm where should I start? I have been doing pretty much everything I could not do while we were together or when we hung out because you wouldn't even consider the idea. The workouts at the gym have gotten rid of a ton of the stress that you caused me, and my mood has been amazing without you! Instead the usual reply is "good." If you are being nice it's the always great "Good, you??" No need to give someone who was not meant to be in your life any info as to how awesome you are even if you aren't (like me haha). Once again trying to be nosey by asking me how I've been will not get you far. I will say that these things I just mentioned are the negative aspect. There are those rare occasions where lovely people on this planet actually care and ask these questions. I just had to share with you all my opinions on all these things. People in the day and age come off as if they really do not care. It's sad, but with everything else on this planet to distract them communication is something that is fizzling out so fast. Nothing lasts as long as it used to. Hopefully people will realize it before it's too late. -Stay Positive and Beautiful Loves -Peace and Love |
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