OMG you guys! I am back and it feels so great. As you can tell I haven't put up a post since December of 2014, and that is so crazy to think about. I took some time off to develop an even deeper relationship with The Lord, and to figure out what exactly I want out of this gift called life...I have figured so much out in these seven months. I feel so proud and so happy to say that I know what I want to be, what I want as far as a relationship goes, and the kind of person I want to show the world. Do you want to know? Is that even a question? You do?! Yay!!!
I guess I will start with what I want to be. Okay here goes... You could say that I have always had this fascination with people's teeth. When I was younger I said I wanted to be a dentist, and while I stuck to that idea for a long time the awful third course of my schooling career had arrived..that's right...HIGH SCHOOL. When I started high school I thought I had it all figured out as most fourteen year olds do, and well...I did not. I lacked confidence, determination, and the ability to block out the rude and hurtful words of certain classmates. I heard "you can't be a dentist", and "that's stupid". Among other things relating to my appearance (to be specific my clothes, shoes, hair, etc.) Now I was made fun of for all these things in middle school, but I felt as though it wouldn't be bad because I was at a school that was just for smart kids (at least that's how they made it seem) anyway back to my career goals...So I decided that because a few people discouraged me and made me feel like an idiot that I would go for something that was easier like a two year business degree, or a wedding planner, or even a chef. All of these things would have been fun, BUT none of them kept my interest, and it wasn't until last year that I figured this out. I was not put on this earth to be someone's planner, or a chef, or a business woman (even though I'd rock at it) I was put on this earth to help people smile with confidence and feel happy. With that being said I went back to my first decision and I will be going back to school to become an orthodontist. I know the journey won't be easy, and I know I will have to work super hard, but I am completely ready to do what I feel God put me here to do, and NO I do not care if you think of my decision. It's my life and I was not put here to please anyone on this planet. So let's talk relationships.... For years I thought that I wanted the tall, light skinned, gorgeous eyes, and beautiful teeth kind of man. haha NO!! I learned the hard way that the appearance of someone has nothing to do with the type of human being they are. I am so appreciative for the lesson, and I now know that that is not what I want. The type of relationship I am looking for goes beyond the outer shell. I want someone who is in love with Jesus and God, and wants to pray together before bed, and in the morning. Someone who looks at me the way you look at a waiter when they bring you your meal, someone who can appreciate the gaming life ha, but in all seriousness a person who is all around selfless, honest, caring, and is respectful of my standards and the things I want just as much as I would respect him for the things he would like. I know that I have to be patient because good men like that don't just fall from the sky. Who am I now? Well, let me tell you. I try to be the most optimistic, kind hearted, and loving person I can be. I no longer judge someone because of the way they look, but instead I talk with them and get to know them. It is not my place to judge anyone because I am in no way perfect myself. I have always loved the animals and the planet, but now I show it way more. I have transitioned from vegetarian to vegan (I started a new blog for it), and I try to speak out and sign every petition that I can. The next step is to find some ways to volunteer my time to the cause. I am not saying that any of this makes me a better person, but I feel like a better person because of these changes. I have so much love in my heart, and people are seeing that. Before I was such a lost human being with no direction and I felt like I had nothing left to live for, and now I feel like I have so much to look forward to that I wake up with a smile on my face regardless of the little things that try to knock me down. I think that I just want the world to see that being kind, positive, and loving can still get you somewhere in life (even though I have been told that is doesn't). That's what I want every person that I cross paths with to see...like I always say "If I can make an impact on at least one person, then I have done my job." I hope each and every one of you reading this is thankful for the life you have regardless of anything bad going on. You are still here for a reason and once you figure out that reason everything that tries to get in your way won't matter.
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